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[22 Mar 2005|06:59pm] |
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Sorry i havnt updated ive been in jail.Since ive been out everything seems the same and nothings changed.Except i was "seeing" this boy and turns out i was wasteing my time,wow who wouldve thought I was so blind i shouldve seen it comeing.I guess im stupid when it comes to boys, wait boys are just stupid.Lately ive been feeling like megans phone,i think when i was grounded i missed megan and jay the most,as for kacie and jared their still tight as eva.Im going to see the black dahila murder that should be waay fun im excited even tho its in like a month.I guess my feelings for steven ave been growing,since i know nothing will happen i shouldnt get into it,but speeking of him i couldnt go to the throw down/the charriot show he bought me a hoodie(even tho i paid for half of it.haha) he's such a nice boy.I haven't been to practice in a week and today was the 1st day ive been back,it reminded me how much i hate swim.Ive been becomeing lazy lately and i kinda like it.I am suposed to be job looking but the lazzyness has gotten the best of me.Oh i got a new phone the # is 743-6993 if you dont have it save it,im getitng my hair done on thrus,THANK FGOD!..its been looking horible.I saw my mom the other day and as always she anoyed me and i dont miss her.Well i dont have anything else to say except West Coast has got me screaming,They’ve got me by the collar.
Shayna
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well i dont really have much to say except for ive been really bussy with school and practice, lately i have been feeling stressed out and stuff.Spending more time with chelsea is a blast we did alot last weekend.im beging to expand my horizon with my friends if thats what you wanna call it.haha well if anyone wants to do anything this weekend you know my number
♥shayna
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I miss you
But I haven't met you yet
So special
But it hasn't happened yet
You are gorgeous
But I haven't met you yet
I remember
But it hasn't happened yet
...And if you believe in dreams
Or what is more important
That a dream can come true
I, I will meet you
I was peaking
..These days have been okay i guess,just completeing them just as i have to but for no resson witch doesnt motivate me.Ive been confused these past days..or should i say out of it? eather or.I feel like i dont know what i want anymore and starting to realize things lately and also fustrted..Blah.i think im going to big bear with jay and megan but..i dont know if i want to go..the fact of being with jsut them to while im by myself is not the way i wanna spend my weekend or the rest of my days..let's jsut say being the 3rd weel is not fun..i guess i havent said anything because i dont wanna make it a big deal or anything but..i think things should change (not in a bad way)..well i think maybe i might be going ice skateing with micheal on fri or something, that should be fuun..and i have never gone before ill problly bust my ass..besides micheal's teaching me and be time im done i'll be pro.haha..or not!!!
♥shayna
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new years resolution-
gain 75.55555 pounds
have sex with megin every night.
eat greesey big fat flinestone chicken wings after hot sex
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[24 Dec 2004|11:44pm] |
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Sorry i havent up dated in a while ive been grouned it seems like ive been in jail,Well i missed megan since shes been in mexico for a week im really glad that she came over tonight and tomaorw im leaveing for lake tahoe..i really dont wanna go but im sure i will have fun.Ive been thinking about how some people disgust me and it makes me wish i never had met them, but i learnd not to stick to there level.Micheal called me the other night and i didnt get his call then i called him back and we talked i really miss him.I got an ipod for chirstmass i pned it up tonight and it was tight HAHA.I dont have any plans for new years so if anyone wants to hang out or do something call me.
♥shayna
i♥ my BeStFrIeNdFoReVeR!!!
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im tired of throwing myself out there..what are you fucking blind!!!
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[26 Nov 2004|11:35pm] |
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Tonight was alot of fun cori came and picked me up and we went to bust megan out of jail and then we went to the hookah bar and we ened up meeting her boyfriend there with his tooth less friend it was by far the funnyst thing ever.I was glad i saw megan it seems like i havent seen her in 12 days.Also it was verry fun spending time with cori and were gonna go to the mall tomaorw so that should be a blast.Later that night im going to the movies with micheal..duunn dunn dunn. if he doesnt forget??..HAHA anyways my parents left to glamis tonight for the weekend so i can pritty much do what i want.Well thankgiveing was alot of fun i ate so much i think i gaid 8 pounds and that night i went to see my sister and my other part of my family in long beach i had a good time but it brought up to manny memories and besides my i had to hear about how much i changed and im not the same person anymore from my sister i had top pritty much ignore her most of the niight.Seriously cant wait for christmass im going to the mountains for a week im leaveing on chirstmass day and my flight leaves to 10 im scared to ride in plans what if it crashes!!..that would be a bummer,humm i dont really have any serious news to up date you people on so im gonna go be fat somewhere HAHA..
what im thankful for
-my mother because shes the best mother a daughter could have and she the best advise giver and im so glad she understands me
-my brother because not only is he my brother but my best friend,also not only did he rase me half my liife but hes sooo supportive
-vanessa ( my brothers girlfriend)..im verry thankful shes in my life because she helps me make the right descions in life and also makes me a better person..i wouldnt have our relationship with each other any other way
-my fat sister because shes a bitch and i like to make fun of her bc shes younger than me haha
-my dead dad haha watev im not thanxful for him bc he left me .
-and most of all my friends because i love youuuuuuuuuuu
-megan i fucking loove you i donbt think i wouldve done half the shit i do now with out you
GOD BLESS
okay im done spilling my liife story..and im glad im not thanxful for my cell phone that was once broken and make up and stuff because i saw some girls entries with that shiit and that was jsut plane stupid HAHA to you
♥hanafynn peeee peee
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Well.. im waitng for megalynn to come over i desided to write some non since.Im really glad we have a 4 day weekend im getting so pooped fom class and practice,toamorw is vanessa's birthday wow shes 25 already..but she still acts 15 haha.Friday im supposed to go to the movies with micheal that should be a blast i hope that works out i love him..Yaay megan gets fucking un grouned on sat (godd bless her)lol.maybe we can do something outrageous is that the riight word? anywho next tuseday is our frist scrimige aganist esperanza so fucking be there 3:00.Haha isnt carma a bitch?
p.s someone supprize me with something good....
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[19 Nov 2004|04:17pm] |
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RUUUFFFFFFFFFF RUUFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!..well as you know ive been sick for the past week and im feeling awsome except i have this disgussting caugh(i hate caughing).tonight i dont really feel like doing anything unless someone calls me,magalynns grounded(god bless you),and im going shopping tomaorw if you wanna join me call me.I was thinking to myself and i maybe wanna quit polo, if i did my parents would eat me,should i do it?????..well ive been looking into some college's, im gay i know..ive been feeling uncomfortable about my mom because shes haveing surgery(shes old)..and i have a new crush, well i would excatly say NEW i had a crush on him before but he played all firlty firltyy with everyone so that was a major trun off..hes such a great guy and he makes me laugh allloot, we have such a great friendship im afried if i told him i had a big fat crush on him things wouldnt be the same but what do i know.well anywho i think im gonna to to get fat and watch tv.....
NEWSFLASH:i love megalynn lee lee...and i have a big fat crush on fdlhglkjsdhgldsf
♥hanafynn pee pee
this makes me siiick..
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i have a big fat crush on someone!!!
Baby Beluga in the deep blue sea,
Swim so wild and you swim so free.
Heaven above, and the sea below,
And a little white whale on the go.
Baby beluga, baby Beluga, is the water warm?
Is your mama home with you, so happy.
Way down yonder where the dolphins play,
Where they dive and splash all day,
The waves roll in and the waves roll out,
See the water squirting out of your spout.
Baby beluga, baby Beluga, sing your little song,
Sing for all your friends, we like to hear you.
When it's dark, you're home and fed,
Curl up snug in your water bed.
Moon is shining and the stars are out,
Good night, little whale, goodnight.
Baby beluga, baby Beluga, with tomorrow's sun,
Another day’s begun, you'll soon be waking.
Baby Beluga in the deep blue sea,
Swim so wild and you swim so free.
Heaven above and the sea below,
And a little white whale on the go.
You’re just a little white whale on the go.
♥shayshay
I ♥ MEGALYNN Lee Lee
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Yet again i didnt lisin to myself, and everything was a mess.Yes me and joey broke up but it was for the better because all he did was treat me like shiit.Haha nothing ever seems to change with guys they make you feel worse more than they maje you feel good,and let me tell you ignoreing a person is not a way of sloveing things.I come to realize that im not gonna get myself into another realtionship before dateing them to figgure out what i really want.Another thing i realized was that even tho you feel good at the time make sure you know what you want other wise everything turns all around.Well alot has happen in the past week, im not really feeling the greatest not in a sick matter but in a emotional one.I think that i need time to think about things but i cant think to much because ill have another break down jesus i woudnt want that to happen it would be the 4 one in the past week.I have to admit homecomeing was sucha blast ..i really wish i wouldve went with my original date because hes such a sweet heart.Even tho i was with my lame boyfriend and after he runid half my night over all i had the best time ever.Im trying to convice my parnets to let me get my spetum pircerd..what do you think???..haha well i think im gonna take it eassy for a looonnnggg tiiiime, take care
♥shayshay
- I HAVE A CRUSH AND GUESS WHAT HES NOT A FUCK ASS EATHER ..WHO WOULDA THOUGHT?
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[29 Oct 2004|07:24pm] |
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Well lets jsut say im so confused about my "love" life.Where do i begin?..well this past week hasnt been the greatest, and i have been kinda upset the other day i saw david and when i saw him it made me think twice.Im not saying anything is gonna happen but i jsut thought about all the memories and so manny things were going through my head it was spining.All day i got worked up and i guess i was over thinking but i got this empty feeling inside and i hadnt got that since "the day my life ended".incase you didnt know that ment the day he broke up with me".Horible ,horible i say..but joey isnt excatly rockin my world right now eaither lets jsut say hes been acting wired toward me lately or to but it in other words hes giveing off a vibe that hes looseing interest in me but im not sure consideering the fact i didnt get a chance to talk to him when he called me because he hung up on me. and for such a silly bullshit reason the reason was that he droped the phone and it hung up..i dont get it im not trying to make a big deal out of this but i feel the need to say something.OKay after he hung up on me i went online and then he was on and and after min and min waiting for him to im me he did and he said" sorry for hanging up on you i droped the phone and it hung up".. a) why couldnt he call back and b) today he told megan that he doesnt always feel the need to talk to me all the time.Okay i dont get why he couldnt come to me and tell me this not to mention im his own girlfriend.I wouldve thought he would at least have the decencey to talk to me and tell me himself or something he ignored me again today or in his case "didnt feel the need to talk to me" and acted like nothings wrong.. i guess the way i feel doesnt really matter.Well i dont think im gonna be able to put up with this imatureite because im not use to it and the way hes been acting lately has been makeing me feel like shiiittt!!.Well the time will come and i wont look back..if you know what i mean.
p.s i guess me trying to let go of something i used to love so much didnt really work.I reallized that me trying to make things go back to the way things used to be didnt really go the way i thought it could..yeah dont get me wrong i like joey ever so dearly hes the only person ive had strong feelings about since david and the last thing i want is for us to break up, i jsut wish i could talk to him without feeling like im wasteing my breath.But i guess ill never get anything solved blableing on..i HOPE THINGS WORK OUT FOR THE BEST!!
memories last forever. jsut trying to get rid of them takes even longer..
♥ shay shay
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im a animal i tell ya an animal!!!
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i ♥ joey
ps. i saw the gurdge and it was the scareyst movie ever!! muhaha and i dyed megans hair that went smooth sa far as i know.Also on fri joey,jay and megan came over and we watched like 4 differnt movies and we didnt even finish haha that was funny and they nearly broke my fuckin house but there hot so that makes up for it.That night me and joey became closer not in a sexual way but a emo way like i and becomeing more closer to him and falling for him even more etc.. blah blah blah well enought of that mosshy gooshy stuff.
pps.homecomeing is next sat and im super duper excited hehe i cant wait..pshh ima drop it like its hot too haha
♥shay shay
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WEll i dont have anything to really say except i have the best boyfriend ever!!♥♥
Humm.. well i was resently in a fight with jay over something stuip but we made up and now were just groovy.I have a polo game next sat vs upland and riverside im really nervous and stuff. well other than that i ♥ my boyfriend
pps..and i fucking love my best friend..sometimes i forget to put that because ima silly spatula!!
♥shay shay
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Holy shit where do i begin.
well ill start off by saying me and my bff's saw the fucking blood brothers!!,damn stright we did and it was the best show of all time.I could hardly keep my clothes on haha, and me and megan practly had sex with the singer. he was in the crowd and we were feeling him up i couldnt stop danceing i fellt like iw as gonna have a hartattack bc i was so damn sweaty and worked up.and a whole lot more!!.Well im gonna have to say that was the best show ever and i wouldnt have rather gone with anyone else.Humm what else is new,oh yeah i have the best boyfriend ever, even tho we had a bad day the other day we got throught it and we couldnt be any better,and he made up for what he did in the cutest way i <3 him!!!.Tonight i went to the movies with joey and we was friday night lights it was boring because i dont understand football but all i cared about was spending time with him, god i so cheezy but what can i say im sooo in like..well homecomeing is comeing up and im so excited thats all i have to say...
♥shay shay
yeah i know were bad asses!!
my fucking bff..suckas!!
im hot i know
cracker crew @ knotts
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[26 Sep 2004|06:10pm] |
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Well,well,well
this wekkend was fun, i went to oct fest with ryan,chelsea and neda witch those kids are always fun i had a blast,i went on a ride with jay and it broke down it was scary.( i forgot we met up with him). that night chelsea spent the night and we were being silly!!.Hhah and the next day joey called and he wanted to know if i wanted to go to a baseball game with im so of corusewe said yes. jon,shottwell,blake,nick,chelsea,me,jon and joey went it was sooo much fun i thought it was gonna be hella boreing but over all of course i had fun.Not to menttion the sun was puting me in a bad mood,well then later that night joey invited me to a football game and i went with chelsea to.We couldnt find him in the beganing bc he was being a fuck ass (not gonna mention that) but then we found him and of course al lthe fun began hehehe.i spent the night at chelseas hosue and that night i found out soo much stuff about somene likeing me!!..it pritty obivous who it is GOSH!! well anwyays i was WAAAY SUPER EXICTED WHEN I FOUND OUT!..it changed everything in a good way.Today me and chelsea went to vist joey at work and hung out and stufff that was fun again ..haha well that was my SuPER EXCITEING WEEKEND!!..
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Well school has started and i couldve have done it with out my wonderful friends.I have okay classes i guess not to hard and not to eassy.So far theres no hot boys well theres some but nothignt to fall for.Humm eww i have polo training it SUCKS ASS!!, im so tired when its done its gross,haha i uploaed some pix from when we got drunk at my house and from knotts,The whole geting drunk thing is a differant story, haha me anad cori went rideing around on my bike or at least tryed to and when we were rideing around we stop by the curch because there was some boys trying to talk to us and we put down my bike not even for 30 sec and one of those little fucks tryed to steal my fuckin bike! BULLSHIT! thanks to cori she got it back. I think i got a homecomeing date now thanx to MEGAN THE MOST WONDERFUL SEXY PERSON OIN THE WORLD!!..he told her that when i ask him it better be cute and i have the best idea in the world hha well i hope you enjoy thses hot pix
take care shay shay a.k.a marge/pholynn
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